8 Novemver 2009 [[.........]]

hmm.. yea.. we break again.. without any reason.. u said tat u jus dont love me anymore.. hmm.. last time oso like tat.. i wonder why u changed so fast.. suddenly said u love me.. miss me.. bla bla bla.. suddenly said u don like me anymore... why r u owes like tat. never think of other ppl's feeling...
i nvr said that i wanna break or wat even if i feel to do so.. know why? bcos i love u.. i noe tat it will be very hurt if i do so.. so i dint.. n i owes said to myself '' just give him 1 more chance.. give us 1 more chance..... '' hmm...

我后晦刚开始的时候没有努力的去珍惜你...我后晦每当你在我身边的时候,我没有更努力的去钩住你的心...我后晦每当争吵的时候,我都没有先跟你道歉...我后晦自己没有做得更好,让你更爱我...我真的很后晦........但有一件事我从来没有后晦过那就是.......我曾经深深的爱过你...

我现在想要的是,机会...我们在一起已经快两年了...开始..分离..从来...我们都一起渡过过...
我知道我现在如果跟你要多一次机会的话,感觉有点不要脸...但是..我还是会等... if i don wait.. means tis 1yr 9months for me, is nothing.. n oso means tat i don love u..

i know watever i think or do, wont change anything... i know... hmm.. but i still wanna try.. mayb i should give u some time... give u a break.. hmm...

i dono whether u still have feelings to me or not.. i noe u said u don like me anymore.. but i blif... tat thr r still feelings.. we've been together for omos 2yrs.. don tell me tat it doesnt mind anymore..

i dono wat happens.. or wats bothering u..

mayb its bcos tat we have been a long time didnt go out wif each other.. hmm.. i dono..



mayb i'm not good enough.. i'll try to change again..

hmm.. i till now still dont blif tat we r over..

i love u.. really.. my love for u doesnt change.. frm the beginning until now..




u owe me one wish.. hope u still remember.. i noe mayb u don care bout it anymore..
but if u still remember or care bout it... wat i wish for.. is.. a chance..

yea.. another chance again.. i don wanna say much.. i jus wan a chance.. tats all..



* sms or contact me if u see this.. ily.. *

2 August 2009 [[ HAPPY DAY!!!!! WOOO~!!!!!!!! ]]

lol last nite went out wif ting, wen n guang rong(wen's fren) (the guy who chase me oso) lol..

went to eat at Kado..
well.. i use guang rong's car went there..
where by ting use wen's car..

god.. really cant stand the smell of his car..
2 ambipur ar~~!! my GOD!!
be tahan..
lol

owes gif me scold.. lol

hmm..
while eating.. i keep on thinking of u.. hmm... thinking bout last time.. we ate at tun jugah.. hock lee.. n so on..

yup. i cried.
luckily wen n him went to toilet..
then ting oso shocked. lol

hmm.. i sms zack..

i asked for 1 more chance..

hmm.. after i sent that msg.. i very scared.. a bit regret.. cos i think tat u sure will not fren me again.. lol..

but.. its the another way round though~~ xp

'' alrite.. i've come to a decision.. ofine.. i'll gif u another chance ;) btt.. u mz understand if i feel uncomfortable or rly cnt continue on... alrite.. ''

i'm very excited when i saw tat msg~~~ xD

ok.. re-on oredi.. lol

hmm...
this morning.. u ask me why i love u so much.

well.. i oso dono.. i first time like tat.. bcos of u, i changed a lot. lol.. why i love u? i oso dono.. cos.. u make me love u first dde.. eee.. start form tat time, i cant control myself.. will keep on thinking of u.. miss u.. and so on.. don wana lost u again.. know wat? after we break, i jus feel like dying.. feel like, something is missing in my heart.. i dont like tat feeling.. very pain.. everyday thinking bout u.. really love u.. T.T..

hmm..
last time u said u don wana hurt me anymore.. then break up.. but.. i feel tat i hurt more. when break up. after break up.

lol..
u said tat i can forget bout u.. see me wan onot oni..
lol
well.. i can tell u tat.
i cant forget... really cant..
i've tried my very best.
hmm..

u're the one tat i love the most..
i'll try my very best to treat u well as much as i can...

i reali really love u...

no matter wat happens.. i'll owes b bside u..
hmm..

i hope tat we can be better than b4..


muacks!!!

I LOVE U

ZACK



hope tat u wont feel tired when being together wif me..
i reli hope so..


lol


oso wana tell u tat.. i rejected tat guy last tuesday nite.. lol
many times oredi.. cos i jus treat him as a fren..
no feel to him..

he've done so much things just for me..
but.. i oni love u..
lol

i know this is very cruel to him..
but.. i've no choice.. lol

he love me.. i love u.. XD




o ya.. after taking our dinner.. we went to the spring.. wen decided ==''

me n ting went to find a place to sit.. n talk..

wen n tat guy went to buy sumting..
well.. they bought the same thing ==''

couple stuff.. babymilo de.. ==''

well.. on the way home, the guy give me the thing.. but i keep on saying NO.
lol
i know it do hurt his heart.. but.. no choice la~ im not his girl anyway ==''
bla bla bla~
*lazy say*

lol

btw.. i din tell him tat we re-on oredi.. mayb next time.. hmm.. cos.. scared later hurt him ar.. lol..

k liao.. for more information.. contact me or.. gossip at school ya~ xD


MIAOW MIAOW LAO GONG~
I LOVE U O~
XP

12 July 2009 [[.. recall..]]

well.. just as usual.. every morning i woke up, sure will think tiok wanna on my phone.. cos last time u'll owes find me first.. but.. when i think
again.. i realise tat.. we've broke up oredi.. lol.. how stupid i am.. xD.
everytime when thrs a msg, im very nervous.. thinking tat it was u.. but.. is other people.. xD.

ok.. i jus wana recall bck wat u wrote to me b4.. things tat happen around us..
i deleted sum of them.. oni remain those i feel like wan to.. lol.. lets start from.. january 2009.

19 Jan 2009
u dun even blif dat i can wait. Or even blif dat i stil love u.

20 Jan 2009
every night the same thing will happen.. sien.. and i'll keep apologizing.. wonder how long dis guna last. goodnight n sweet dreams.

25 Jan 2009
>Haiz... make me love u again.. and mayb i will love u..... im sorry... i think its my fault.

>>Mayb its my fault... haiz.. sry... jus let me go.. i only make u sad nia.

29 Jan 2009
u changed. i know...... but........ my feelings 4 u jus didnt change.... i dont know why...... im sry.

8 Feb 2009
You too. Dont too late sleep. i think things are starting to change. I believe in a new beginning :) muacks! lov ya <3

18 Feb 2009
er.. dono yet lol... dear.. yesterday is our 1 year anniversary. xp

28 March 2009
Wad wad wad. mz zhen xi got gf ma. xp cause not many people r dat lucky to hav a gf like u. eee.xp

6 May 2009
Sorry no cure? r u sure my dear dear baby lao po?xp muacks!

12 May 2009
Fill in the blanks, send this back 2 me! =D

3 things u CANT forget bout me:
-yr body
-yr voice
-yr smile

My nickname
-dear

My name that u save in ur phone
-apple

Words that i oways say
-xp

About me
-gorgeous

What do u want me to be
-my lao po

Unforgetable memory with me
-muacks.xp

What u DISLIKE bout me
-attp

Do U love me? yes/no
-yes

21 May 2009
K then i sleep lo k.. sory cnt pei u til 12 ar.. happy bday my baby lao po.. hehe.. i love u wor
k.. muacks!

3 July 2009
i sleep le o.o x.x -.- talk when i feel lyk. Mayb next week.

4 July 2009
If u realy that hate me nw, already cnt how le. i doubt u'll never forget wat i said and i wouldn't forget it either. Sorry if i caused so much suffering n pain in ur life. i have no idea wat to do now or next. The decision is urs.

5 July 2009
good nite dear dear... xp muacks! i love u.

9 July 2009
Haha.. k la.. sleep liao.. nite dear.. love u
muacks!

10 July 2009
i dont think we both feel happy tis way n it wouldn't be very gd if we go on... i dont think im ready to be in a relationship... im not happy n i dun think u r too.. i dun wan to hurt u anymore.. so pls.. dun ask me to think about it.. really sorry..





--------end----

well.. i save those messages.. others deleted..
sum bad sum good.

things are owes changing..

lol.. jus wana wrote them out oni..

by the way.. its not really tat important oredi..

wats on my mind is..
i don care wat other people think bout u..
hate u or love..
u r owes the best in my heart..
lol
thank god for giving me such a nice n wonderful present.

i really hope tat u can come bck to me..
but.. i know im just dreaming. lol


i have no ''wei kou'' to eat this morning..
dono why.
lol

i haven forget bout u..
lol

11 JULAI 2009 [[..... Break.]

*long time din update my blog oredi.. hmmm...*
im waiting for ur msg tis morning when i woke up.. lol
dono why.. xD.. but din receive any.. :)
from tat onwards.. i knew oredi.. u're not mine anymore.. lol..

well.. we break up last night(10 Julai)
im totally shock.. dono how to accept tis '' shi shi''
at first we're still good..
but after phone... things gone wrong suddenly..

jus like other days.. after phone.. i wait for ur msg..
but u din send any.. so i jus put the phone in my pocket n went to brush teeth n wash face..
den went downstairs to watch tv wif 2nd bro..after about 15mins time.. i receive a msg.. i tot is other people.. but.. its u..

msg content : '' I dont think we both feel happy this way and it wouldn't be very gud if we go on... i dont think im ready to be in a relationship... im not happy n i dun think u r too.. i dun want to hurt u anymore.. so please.. dun ask me to think about it.. really sorry.. ''

after tat.. i try to calm myself.. then i ask u do u still love me..
u said no.
i asked u start from when.
u said ''more n more worse since everytime when we quarrel.. i bet u noticed it. ''
yea.. i knew it.. hmmm... for real.. dono when.. i start to feel tat.. u're not belong to me anymore.. im very scared to receive any msg from u during night time..
its bcos... bcos i scared tat u'll send me a break up msg.......

i dont hope tis to happen.. but then... it still......

i dono how to express my feeling... i told ting bout it.. she thought tat i was kidding with her at first.. lol.. but at last she believed .. cos i phoned her and told her everything..

wow... my tears roll down non stop till i cant really talk..

hmm.. u said tat u don wana hurt me anymore..
hey.. i wont care.. u can hurt me if u wan to.. i wont mind..
i love u so much tat i can do anything jus for u...
my god.. am i stupid? i don think so..
love is like tat.. lol..

well.. u said tat we'll break up sum day..
u're going to continue ur study at australia after form 5..
tats the time tat we're going to break up..
hmm.. but.. we still can contact each other.. it doesn't means tat..we must break up..
i can wait.. no matter how long..

u told me b4.. bout ur fren's parents..
they separate for omos 10 years i guess.. but at last.. they still get married..

hmm.. i dono why u'll made tis decision..
but 1 thing tat i know is.. u don love me anymore..

:)

well.. i'll try to forget bout u.. it will be kinda hard to..
by the way.. we are in a relationship for 1 year 5 months..
it wont be so easy to forget bout u..

mayb i'll forget bout u sumday or mayb not.. dono how long it will take..



hey.. u're the man i love the most..
i dono why i'll love u.. or choose u..
but i wont ''hou hui'' tat i love u..

thanx for giving me a sweet memory..


goodbye my love..
im happy to have a boyfriend like u..
n.. thanx for ur first kiss.. lol..
thanx for ur smile.. ur hug..
thanx for holding my hands b4.. lol..
thanx for plying guitar for me..
thanx for accompany-ing me watching concert.. movies n so on..
thanx for everything..

for real.. im very sad n heart pain now.. lol..

hmm.. mayb i'll meet my true love tis yr or next or next next...... sumone tat really loves me lot.. lol..

yea u're right ting~ i still have frens.. tat loves me n cares bout me..
thanx ting.. for being my side.. lol..


my love.. hope u'll find a girl tat is better than me..
prettier.. cute-er.. nicer.. caring than me.. love u more than me..
not so annoying like me.. everything better than me..
lol..



hope tat we're still frens.. :) jus like b4? lol..
dono u mind or not.. xD..



i dono u'll read my blog or not..
but still.. thank you.. :)..

15 April [[ finished piano exam le~~~^^ ]]

yeah~~~ xD jus came bck frm rock road imh.. lol.. jus nw went for piano exam.. grade 7.. o.o xD kinda tired n feel wana vomit(dono why, mayb eat too full) b4 entering the examination studio.. lol the ang mo start the exam earlier 20 mins.. lol so.. ben lai i supposed to start at 2.20 de.. then 2.00 jiu start le.. xD not bad i think.. hope can get at least merit.. o.o

prepare for last grade.. grade 8 ^^..

today dint go to sch.. xD mum said ma fan... kinda rush.. lol.. so.. jus stay at home.. n whole morning practise piano.. lol dono sch frens got miss me ma ler~~~??? xD i think no.. lol

anyway.. less stress oredi.. xD

10 April 2009 [[ dating ^^ ]]

jus now afternoon go cinema wif dar dar^^
watch 2 fast 2 furious 4. lol
not bad. xD very satt xp
xD
lol so many my sch de ppl ler... ><
buy popcorn de shi hou.. queue for so long... ><
dar dar looks very bu nai fan like tat T.T
but at last finally till my turn le.. XD
buy supercombo.. lol
walao.. 3 o'clock de oso full..
ben lai we watch 2 o'clock de.. but full jor.. T.T
den buy 3 o'clock de lo.. tat time still got many places to sit..
lol
lucky la. xD

love tis day^^
cos can meet wif dar^^
xD
muacks muacks~~~ xD

7 April 2009 [[ snowie......... ]]

haiz............ jus nw on the way home.. mum ask wan go visit snowie ma.. i very excited lo.. but i said '' dono she still ' alive ' or not ler.. '' cos.. after we send her 'back' to petshop for around 1 month oni, me n sis got go n visit her.. she looks sooo sick.. n thin.. the petshop ppl din help her bath.... frm the day we sent her thr till tat day.. fur very yellowish.. n ' luo mao ' oso.. so kolian.. n the weight, jus like a fur.. no weight at all... heart broken ar.....

when we arrived at the petshop.. we saw a white cat.. looks jus like snowie.. but.. not so alike oso.. den we ask that lao ban niang.. she said '' snowie bye bye liao '' ....... last yr died de.. i hold my tears.. don let it to cum out... i jus smile smile n keep on looking at those cat in the transparent ' room ' .. she still said '' u guys long time din cum n visit her liao ler.. '' den mum said '' we bo eng ma..'' bla bla bla.. den tat stupid lao ban niang said tat her maid din take care of snowie properly.. = = she so eng ar.. sitting at the counter thr ' qiao jiao ' gok!!! the maid so bo eng ar!!! she oso wont help de meh??!!!! ma de = = that time we send snowie thr de shi hou, she owes put snowie outside the room ar.. wif da dog thr.. n everybody that enter da shop sure will sayang snowie.. sumone even wana bring snowie back ar.... but until snowie bcam dirty ( they din help her bath ) , she put her bck inside to the room again... but everyone still keep on looking at snowie ( snowie din look at them.. hao lian de face.. xp ).. hmm..

until snowie is sick... den dead jor... i think is other cats ' chuan ran bing ' to snowie de... cos those cat in that room, all looks so tired n sick de.. den they put snowie inside the same room.. so will ' bei chuan ran bing '.. ko lian.... T.T miss her so much...

since my mum bought her to our home.. snowie was still a small kitten.. around 7cm big de kitten nia.. hmm.. n no weight at all.. like fur.. hmm.. she tat time underweight de.. n dirty dirty de.. walk de shi hou want fall want fall de.. den mum help her bath.. clean her up.. she very cute.. ^^ we take care of her properly.. n giv her anything she wants.. until she grown up.. frm underweight, bcum a normal weight.. its hard to do tat.. lol.. we owes brought her to any competition.. n she won all the time.. everyone tat have seen snowie b4, will owes said '' eee!!!!!!! very cute ar!!!!!!!!! '' lol... XD.. ben lai de.. xp.. hmm.. can say tat, we all r very lucky to hav her.. lol.. she makes us ' lucky '.. lol dono hw to say. xD. i treat snowie as my little sister.. we lov her so much.. we owes ply wif her.. lol very cute o.. xD i owes kissed her oso. xpxp lol

since my mum bought her to our home .. mum tat time gt told us sumting. she said '' we bought snowie here.. so we hav the responsibility to take care of her.. '' ... yea.. we take care of her.. very nice.. but one day.... (last yr b4 new yr).. when i went for piano tuition.. dad call mum to send snowie bck to petshop.. dad owes complain bout snowie's pee or shit.. he owes said very smelly.. n he cant stand it oredi... b4 the day, tat night, he call mum to send snowie bck to petshop the next day.. give, to the petshop ' lao ban niang ' (snowie yi qian de zhu ren).. haiz................. n i din even see her ' zui hou yi mian '... T.T cos i tat time at piano tuition.. haiz........... hate my dad ar......... T.T

sis said mum got cry when mum send snowie to the petshop.. mum wore sun glasses ( prevent ppl see her crying ) ... hmmm......... after i went home.. i cant find snowie everywhere.. zzz... den baru knew tat.. she oredi at petshop le.. i tot they will sent her bck at after chinese new year!!! but who knows!!! ........................ haiz....

me n sis everynight dream tiok snowie.. at a period of time... miss her so so much... haiz... i think is snowie ' tuo meng ' to us de.. i think tat time, she oredi ' bye bye ' le.. snowie oso miss us very much de... i knew tat...

although she died... but i still hope to see her.. 1 time oso can.. don care tats her spirit or not... not scared at all... jus hope to see her.. love her so much.......

hope ' she's still ok '..

snowie is owes our ' loved pet '.. not pet. can say is family oredi...........

love u owes.... snowie....