12 July 2009 [[.. recall..]]

well.. just as usual.. every morning i woke up, sure will think tiok wanna on my phone.. cos last time u'll owes find me first.. but.. when i think
again.. i realise tat.. we've broke up oredi.. lol.. how stupid i am.. xD.
everytime when thrs a msg, im very nervous.. thinking tat it was u.. but.. is other people.. xD.

ok.. i jus wana recall bck wat u wrote to me b4.. things tat happen around us..
i deleted sum of them.. oni remain those i feel like wan to.. lol.. lets start from.. january 2009.

19 Jan 2009
u dun even blif dat i can wait. Or even blif dat i stil love u.

20 Jan 2009
every night the same thing will happen.. sien.. and i'll keep apologizing.. wonder how long dis guna last. goodnight n sweet dreams.

25 Jan 2009
>Haiz... make me love u again.. and mayb i will love u..... im sorry... i think its my fault.

>>Mayb its my fault... haiz.. sry... jus let me go.. i only make u sad nia.

29 Jan 2009
u changed. i know...... but........ my feelings 4 u jus didnt change.... i dont know why...... im sry.

8 Feb 2009
You too. Dont too late sleep. i think things are starting to change. I believe in a new beginning :) muacks! lov ya <3

18 Feb 2009
er.. dono yet lol... dear.. yesterday is our 1 year anniversary. xp

28 March 2009
Wad wad wad. mz zhen xi got gf ma. xp cause not many people r dat lucky to hav a gf like u. eee.xp

6 May 2009
Sorry no cure? r u sure my dear dear baby lao po?xp muacks!

12 May 2009
Fill in the blanks, send this back 2 me! =D

3 things u CANT forget bout me:
-yr body
-yr voice
-yr smile

My nickname
-dear

My name that u save in ur phone
-apple

Words that i oways say
-xp

About me
-gorgeous

What do u want me to be
-my lao po

Unforgetable memory with me
-muacks.xp

What u DISLIKE bout me
-attp

Do U love me? yes/no
-yes

21 May 2009
K then i sleep lo k.. sory cnt pei u til 12 ar.. happy bday my baby lao po.. hehe.. i love u wor
k.. muacks!

3 July 2009
i sleep le o.o x.x -.- talk when i feel lyk. Mayb next week.

4 July 2009
If u realy that hate me nw, already cnt how le. i doubt u'll never forget wat i said and i wouldn't forget it either. Sorry if i caused so much suffering n pain in ur life. i have no idea wat to do now or next. The decision is urs.

5 July 2009
good nite dear dear... xp muacks! i love u.

9 July 2009
Haha.. k la.. sleep liao.. nite dear.. love u
muacks!

10 July 2009
i dont think we both feel happy tis way n it wouldn't be very gd if we go on... i dont think im ready to be in a relationship... im not happy n i dun think u r too.. i dun wan to hurt u anymore.. so pls.. dun ask me to think about it.. really sorry..





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well.. i save those messages.. others deleted..
sum bad sum good.

things are owes changing..

lol.. jus wana wrote them out oni..

by the way.. its not really tat important oredi..

wats on my mind is..
i don care wat other people think bout u..
hate u or love..
u r owes the best in my heart..
lol
thank god for giving me such a nice n wonderful present.

i really hope tat u can come bck to me..
but.. i know im just dreaming. lol


i have no ''wei kou'' to eat this morning..
dono why.
lol

i haven forget bout u..
lol

11 JULAI 2009 [[..... Break.]

*long time din update my blog oredi.. hmmm...*
im waiting for ur msg tis morning when i woke up.. lol
dono why.. xD.. but din receive any.. :)
from tat onwards.. i knew oredi.. u're not mine anymore.. lol..

well.. we break up last night(10 Julai)
im totally shock.. dono how to accept tis '' shi shi''
at first we're still good..
but after phone... things gone wrong suddenly..

jus like other days.. after phone.. i wait for ur msg..
but u din send any.. so i jus put the phone in my pocket n went to brush teeth n wash face..
den went downstairs to watch tv wif 2nd bro..after about 15mins time.. i receive a msg.. i tot is other people.. but.. its u..

msg content : '' I dont think we both feel happy this way and it wouldn't be very gud if we go on... i dont think im ready to be in a relationship... im not happy n i dun think u r too.. i dun want to hurt u anymore.. so please.. dun ask me to think about it.. really sorry.. ''

after tat.. i try to calm myself.. then i ask u do u still love me..
u said no.
i asked u start from when.
u said ''more n more worse since everytime when we quarrel.. i bet u noticed it. ''
yea.. i knew it.. hmmm... for real.. dono when.. i start to feel tat.. u're not belong to me anymore.. im very scared to receive any msg from u during night time..
its bcos... bcos i scared tat u'll send me a break up msg.......

i dont hope tis to happen.. but then... it still......

i dono how to express my feeling... i told ting bout it.. she thought tat i was kidding with her at first.. lol.. but at last she believed .. cos i phoned her and told her everything..

wow... my tears roll down non stop till i cant really talk..

hmm.. u said tat u don wana hurt me anymore..
hey.. i wont care.. u can hurt me if u wan to.. i wont mind..
i love u so much tat i can do anything jus for u...
my god.. am i stupid? i don think so..
love is like tat.. lol..

well.. u said tat we'll break up sum day..
u're going to continue ur study at australia after form 5..
tats the time tat we're going to break up..
hmm.. but.. we still can contact each other.. it doesn't means tat..we must break up..
i can wait.. no matter how long..

u told me b4.. bout ur fren's parents..
they separate for omos 10 years i guess.. but at last.. they still get married..

hmm.. i dono why u'll made tis decision..
but 1 thing tat i know is.. u don love me anymore..

:)

well.. i'll try to forget bout u.. it will be kinda hard to..
by the way.. we are in a relationship for 1 year 5 months..
it wont be so easy to forget bout u..

mayb i'll forget bout u sumday or mayb not.. dono how long it will take..



hey.. u're the man i love the most..
i dono why i'll love u.. or choose u..
but i wont ''hou hui'' tat i love u..

thanx for giving me a sweet memory..


goodbye my love..
im happy to have a boyfriend like u..
n.. thanx for ur first kiss.. lol..
thanx for ur smile.. ur hug..
thanx for holding my hands b4.. lol..
thanx for plying guitar for me..
thanx for accompany-ing me watching concert.. movies n so on..
thanx for everything..

for real.. im very sad n heart pain now.. lol..

hmm.. mayb i'll meet my true love tis yr or next or next next...... sumone tat really loves me lot.. lol..

yea u're right ting~ i still have frens.. tat loves me n cares bout me..
thanx ting.. for being my side.. lol..


my love.. hope u'll find a girl tat is better than me..
prettier.. cute-er.. nicer.. caring than me.. love u more than me..
not so annoying like me.. everything better than me..
lol..



hope tat we're still frens.. :) jus like b4? lol..
dono u mind or not.. xD..



i dono u'll read my blog or not..
but still.. thank you.. :)..