11 JULAI 2009 [[..... Break.]

*long time din update my blog oredi.. hmmm...*
im waiting for ur msg tis morning when i woke up.. lol
dono why.. xD.. but din receive any.. :)
from tat onwards.. i knew oredi.. u're not mine anymore.. lol..

well.. we break up last night(10 Julai)
im totally shock.. dono how to accept tis '' shi shi''
at first we're still good..
but after phone... things gone wrong suddenly..

jus like other days.. after phone.. i wait for ur msg..
but u din send any.. so i jus put the phone in my pocket n went to brush teeth n wash face..
den went downstairs to watch tv wif 2nd bro..after about 15mins time.. i receive a msg.. i tot is other people.. but.. its u..

msg content : '' I dont think we both feel happy this way and it wouldn't be very gud if we go on... i dont think im ready to be in a relationship... im not happy n i dun think u r too.. i dun want to hurt u anymore.. so please.. dun ask me to think about it.. really sorry.. ''

after tat.. i try to calm myself.. then i ask u do u still love me..
u said no.
i asked u start from when.
u said ''more n more worse since everytime when we quarrel.. i bet u noticed it. ''
yea.. i knew it.. hmmm... for real.. dono when.. i start to feel tat.. u're not belong to me anymore.. im very scared to receive any msg from u during night time..
its bcos... bcos i scared tat u'll send me a break up msg.......

i dont hope tis to happen.. but then... it still......

i dono how to express my feeling... i told ting bout it.. she thought tat i was kidding with her at first.. lol.. but at last she believed .. cos i phoned her and told her everything..

wow... my tears roll down non stop till i cant really talk..

hmm.. u said tat u don wana hurt me anymore..
hey.. i wont care.. u can hurt me if u wan to.. i wont mind..
i love u so much tat i can do anything jus for u...
my god.. am i stupid? i don think so..
love is like tat.. lol..

well.. u said tat we'll break up sum day..
u're going to continue ur study at australia after form 5..
tats the time tat we're going to break up..
hmm.. but.. we still can contact each other.. it doesn't means tat..we must break up..
i can wait.. no matter how long..

u told me b4.. bout ur fren's parents..
they separate for omos 10 years i guess.. but at last.. they still get married..

hmm.. i dono why u'll made tis decision..
but 1 thing tat i know is.. u don love me anymore..

:)

well.. i'll try to forget bout u.. it will be kinda hard to..
by the way.. we are in a relationship for 1 year 5 months..
it wont be so easy to forget bout u..

mayb i'll forget bout u sumday or mayb not.. dono how long it will take..



hey.. u're the man i love the most..
i dono why i'll love u.. or choose u..
but i wont ''hou hui'' tat i love u..

thanx for giving me a sweet memory..


goodbye my love..
im happy to have a boyfriend like u..
n.. thanx for ur first kiss.. lol..
thanx for ur smile.. ur hug..
thanx for holding my hands b4.. lol..
thanx for plying guitar for me..
thanx for accompany-ing me watching concert.. movies n so on..
thanx for everything..

for real.. im very sad n heart pain now.. lol..

hmm.. mayb i'll meet my true love tis yr or next or next next...... sumone tat really loves me lot.. lol..

yea u're right ting~ i still have frens.. tat loves me n cares bout me..
thanx ting.. for being my side.. lol..


my love.. hope u'll find a girl tat is better than me..
prettier.. cute-er.. nicer.. caring than me.. love u more than me..
not so annoying like me.. everything better than me..
lol..



hope tat we're still frens.. :) jus like b4? lol..
dono u mind or not.. xD..



i dono u'll read my blog or not..
but still.. thank you.. :)..